Day 30

I know you've all been waiting for the end of the song challenge. Today is that day. Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year.

To understand my choice, we need to think back to a year ago... A year ago, I was getting ready for my BCPL interview. I was getting ready to visit James (since I stayed with him and drove up for the interview). I was trying desperately to get out of NY and closer to James. I was so sick of the humdrum of my NYC life. In a weird way, I had just outgrown it. I wanted to move on and start living.

A song that kept me going last year was I Want to Live by Josh Gracin. It came out a few years ago, but it provided me with the inspiration I needed to start living again. I felt trapped in NYC...the lyrics:

"Its like I'm swimming through
An ocean of emotion
But still somehow slowly
Goin numb inside
I don't like who I'm becomin'
I know I've gotta do somethin'
Before my life passes right by"

It's how I felt to a T. I realized I had become someone I didn't really know or like all that much...

Life is short. I want the best of everything! I want experiences! I want to be able to drive home and see my family whenever I feel like it! I want to love with every bone in my body! I want to LIVE!

And somehow over the past year, I have gotten back to the girl I once was. I feel more like myself now, than I have in a long time. I've been rebuilding my relationship with God. I've been able to see my family tons! I'm blessed to have the best co-workers in the world! I'm happy again :)