Crazy mind chatter...

Lately my mind has been buzzing with all sorts of crazy things. My life is sort of uncertain and I don't really know what I want anymore...so things are constantly swirling around up there...

Take my job...right now I don't know if I'll have one in a few months...that's sort of exciting and terrifying all at once! And if I DO lose my job and I don't have another lined up...well then what? Where do I go? What do I do? Right now I'm leaning towards going back to Michigan mainly bc of the new baby. I want a chance to spend some time with my new niece/nephew...I love being Owen's favorite aunt (shhh don't tell) and I'd like to be close to this baby too...

Take my health...if the whole job thing goes away so does the insurance...that would suck big time. How would I pay for my meds? How would I pay for my checkups? Scary stuff.

Speaking of which...the health update goes like this--bladder is all better (knock on wood)...I had outpatient surgery on my toe on Wednesday so I have a slight limp...have yet to see the extent of mouth problems as I don't go to the dentist til Tuesday...other than that, I'm doing well for the time being (again knock on wood).

If you can, please say a prayer for my friend Carrie as she's dealing with some crazy stuff right now...

Let's see...I continue to work quite a bit right now which is kinda crazy since layoffs have been threatened...rather than be proactive with our budget, we like to wait and see what happens...lol gotta love BPL.

Oh and I've come to the realization that people like to tell me they are going to do something for me and then proceed to tell me why they didn't do it. Either do things or don't do them. DON'T tell me you were going to...sort of ruins it...and don't do it now...especially the sending of flowers...now it just feels forced...

I guess I just sort of feel like taking a break. My current life is continuing to burn me out... I need a rest... I need a clear mind again... Hopefully things will be more cheery with the next post...